거짓말.

So just today, I've found out you've been lying to me, for so long. Is it that difficult for you to tell me? You say I may not be able to handle the truth, but I'd rather you tell me face front then finding out from a third party.

Putting on fake smiles in front of me, wanting to run away from me. Is it really so difficult to be friends with me? I don't get it. Why is it that every single friendship I experience, things like this always happen.

The 3 of you have something in common, and that is judging me based on the way I behave in real life and on social networks. I don't even understand why must you all do that. You all can't accept that I type differently from the way I speak? Let's try this. If let's say I type out "ohmygOD THIS IS SO CIAODKQICPSND" do you really expect me to say this entire phrase out? Hm? Let's be honest here. This is only a trivial matter. What the heck.

You are aware that I'm trying really hard to fit in. You are aware that I try my best to relate to you all. Aren't these my efforts in trying to maintain this friendship? Do you see why I chose to end it now? Do you? DO YOU?!

Though it may be hard to accept the cold hard truth in your face, but its so much better to get this once from the person herself than to actually find out weeks later that they've been lying to you all along. This is definitely something they should reflect on.

Now I feel like this ending as classmates on good terms isn't really working out. Not because of me, but because of them. But whatever. Who cares about me anyway? Its 3 (and more) against 1. What can I say? I have no backup. I can't even defend myself.

I'm just hopeless. I hope the year ends sooner and I get the grades I want, then off I go to a new school with a different life and a career to pursue. Save myself from all this trouble too. Life, can you please be a little nicer to me? I beg of you. This hurts. A lot.