Haven't blogged in ages, so I thought I shall today. Let's begin, shall we?
It's getting closer and closer to Prelim 2, which means so damn close to O Levels. I'm really starting to feel afraid and tense. I think I actually yolo-ed my entire way through this year, last year too. I'm really scared I can't do well and get the results I want. What am I to do if I don't do well? This modern society focuses on grades. Without them, I'm doomed.
To make matters worse, I am still being so lazy in my studies. I really can't bring myself to do self revision until its super close to the exams. What am I to do, honestly. I guess by blogging and stuff I can train on my writing abilities for English compositions, but the subjects I need help with are Maths and Chemistry. Not meaning to brag, but my English has always been good. I'm a language person, can't make it with figures and formulas like Maths, and that's where all my problems come from.
However, I managed to fish out those topics which I'm weak at! I guess that counts as an achievement for me. //cues applause// I still owe my laoshi 3 more essays which I'm obviously going to do during the weekends because I'm too tired from writing 2 essays this week. I'm really such a lazy bum. Get your shit together, Christabelle. For Christ's sake its less than 65 days to O Levels!
Update on my friendship issues, I think I'm going well with it. I managed to survive those hard times despite being on my own most of the time, but I really have some classmates and close friends to thank. They really helped me to pull through this difficult period. I don't know what's wrong with me, but it seems that I can't find proper friendship ever since enrolling into secondary school. Secondary school is one heck of a nightmare for me, I really dread it. To think people are all like "Secondary school is the best!" and "Its the best 4/5 years in my life!". I really don't feel the same at all. Help.
In other news, my F&N coursework is over! Really glad that its done, but I'm really going to miss staying back late nights and going to school on Saturdays to complete coursework with Mrs Joseph. She's really the best teacher ever. I'm going to miss her the most when I leave this school. Last week, I had my English orals too. I guess it turned out fine, since the examiners were smiling at me the whole time. I was so scared that day, and whatever I planned to say didn't come out of my mouth as expected. I really hope I get a good grade. Really depending on English, F&N, Humanities, Chinese and Combined Science to help me through. I really can't with Maths and Higher Chinese. I have to buck up on my Chemistry otherwise its going to pull down my Biology scores!
I've ran out of things to say in this post, so I guess I'll shut up now. Really lazy to type even if I had any other ideas. Unless I have an outburst of ideas and have nobody to share it with, otherwise I shall wait till the next time I'm free and not lazy to type up the next blog post. Goodbye.
